You’ve heard it countless times I’m sure. Say YES to life. Say YES to this, that… Well, my business and life experiences in saying yes have been quite a “mess”.
I said yes to yoga teacher training. Not to teach, but to help myself heal. Then the Universe guided me to actually let go of my fear and teach classes. That was not my original intention.
I said yes to opening a wellness centre in Whitby in 2016 providing yoga, Reiki, and hypnotherapy services. Right after we said yes, one person backed out. So that left two of us. Then not long into it, the other person had some challenges and again, I was left to pick up the pieces and the debt to carry on my own. But might as well, because I have been pretty much doing it all since day one anyway. I had the centre for over three years. I worked my corporate job during the day and then headed over to teach every night and weekend, 10-13 classes weekly. Longggg days.
My lease was up for renewal in January 2020. My guides advised me to not renew my lease a few months prior . I shed many tears over this tough decision. It was my baby and I had worked so hard to build it. But I just couldn’t. I was working 12-13 hours daily at the restaurant (I opened the restaurant Aug 2018) and then headed over to teach 10-13 classes weekly, depending on which teachers needed coverage. Absolutely no day off. Summer was the most challenging as many teachers wanted time off. I had to be there for every single class and workshop. I was burning the candle on both ends. I made arrangements with two local studios to ensure my clients were taken care of after I closed.
Then March 2020, we were shut down. Studios and gyms were closed. I went from feeling broken hearted to feeling so relieved. I was beyond grateful that I listened to my guides. It’s crucial to listen because we just don’t know what’s around the corner. And even if I had kept the centre open, there was no flippin’ way I could have kept both going. We were slammed at the restaurant. With the added cleaning protocols and other things we had to stay on top of, it exhausted me mentally and physically.
When our restaurant was still across the street, a tiny hole in the wall, we looked at a few places to move into. I said yes to three different spaces and each time, it was a no go. My guides were laughing at me while saying “Why do you even bother planning with the little knowledge that you have? Just leave it to us. Do the work, and we’ll take care of the rest”.
One fateful Saturday afternoon, the space that we are currently in now opened up, just like that. The previous tenant didn’t work out. I had wanted this space seven months prior. I wasn’t even able to take a look back then as it was taken already. And then, seven months later, it was ready for us. Outside of the plan. “You can move in tomorrow if you’d like.” The landlord said.
We closed for a week to clean up, move things, get more supplies, and get the place ready. As I have evolved and expanded our businesses, I always keep in mind that our plans will probably not work the way we envisioned it because our knowledge is limited. It forces me to surrender to the infinite and limitless Divine guidance. I set my intentions and I set them free. I detach myself to how things will be manifested. All I am sure of is that they will come to fruition beyond my wildest dreams and for my Highest Good.
I have said yes to many things and when they weren’t meant to be, they didn’t happen. Meanwhile, I have said no to many more things but my guides led me in a different direction and they happened. So I concluded that it doesn’t really matter what my answer is. If they’re meant to happen, they will happen. However, it doesn’t mean I don’t make choices or decisions. Let me explain. How I live my life is like this. I have my self-care practices and I align my actions with my values and beliefs as best I can. I set my intentions and strive to serve with all my heart and soul. When Source/God/Universe decides that I am ready to serve in a bigger capacity, I will be guided there. I meet them halfway through my willingness to do all the work and everything I need is provided for me. Of course my ego still worries from time to time. But for the most part, I have this deep peace and knowing that all is well always and all ways. We are co-creators of our own life and experiences. We are not helpless or powerless. Life happens for us and with us.
I shall leave you with these questions and thoughts to ponder: If you have everything you need- all the resources, strength, and means, what would you do (not in a materialistic way)? How would you live differently (again, not in a materialistic way)? If you know that you are not alone and that you are fully guided and protected, how would you live your life? How would you feel?
So, I wonder then, if you could put yourself THERE already. Now live the way you’re meant to live. BE who you really are already. FEARLESS. DOUBTLESS. PASSIONATE. Because so many souls would trade places with you instantly.
Have a fantastic time being YOU today. Make it FUN. Make it JOYOUS.
XO,
Mathilda